Now December is progressing and 2020 is just off-stage, running through its warming-up exercises, I think the time has come to sum up my feelings about my chosen Word of the Year.
I have kept my word with me throughout the year, with the hand-written sheet shown in my January photo accompanying me across a variety of planners. I have thought a lot about whether this word has been useful, whether it has been a guide, whether I have lived up to it. Recently, I have also been considering the ways in which choosing a Word of the Year differs from setting goals and making resolutions.
All along I wanted this to be a year where I established myself in a firm lifestyle. At the beginning of the year I wanted it to be more of an ‘alternative’ lifestyle, getting an income from a variety of different endeavours, using my creativity, being independent. As the summer ramped up I became more and more aware of how uncomfortable that lifestyle made me feel. I discovered that, for me, independence is easier to achieve by returning to a more structured working life, employed by a company and earning a regular wage.
Although the shape of my aspirations for my working life changed dramatically during the course of the year, I have indeed established a way of working that suits me and I feel it resonates very well with my word of the year.
Moving home was unexpected and unwelcome. On top of the new job it was just too much change, and I spent the autumn feeling like my life was a shipwreck. Yet, here I am, happy in my new home, looking forward to the future, re-linking with the things I love – the writing, the knitting, baking, dreaming. I have found that firm foothold in life that I so longed for.
On the whole I feel Establish was a great Word of the Year for 2019. Although I would not have anticipated how the year would go, I do feel I have spent it establishing new ways of working, settling and fixing things, pursuing opportunities, and definitely getting a firm foothold in my life. If I had sat at the end of last year and set specific goals for the next twelve months, I would not have met them because specific goals don’t have the flexibility I need to keep my soul unencumbered, allowing me to pursue the paths that open up ahead of me.
I am still mulling over what I should choose as my Word of the Year 2020, but I will share it when I have decided.
Did you choose a Word of the Year? How has it guided you?