
I used to be able to write neatly. When I was at school I won a prize for keeping a neat notebook. I have a love of all the paraphernalia of writing, the notebooks, the pens, the ink, the heady smell of a stationery shop. So when did I lose the ability to write, and where did my handwriting go? Did the rot start the day I first lay fingers on the keys of a typewriter? Certainly, by the time I was taking my creative writing course I could write much more effectively sitting at a computer than handwriting on paper and then laboriously transcribing it. I didn’t realise it at the time, but my handwriting was already starting to drift away from me. Yet even a few short years ago I was capable of turning out page after page of readable script when I put my mind to it. Now, it disintegrates into an ungainly scrawl which the finest pens and ink cannot remedy, and I can no longer love it.
I don’t know if my handwriting and I can ever be reconciled, but it feels like a part of me is missing if I cannot pick up a pen and produce something sweet.
Don’t want to worry you but I noticed that my mother-in-law’s hand writing became more of a scrawl as mild dementia set in. My father’s handwriting is also quite a mess now and my mother insists he’s loosing his marbles.
Okay, okay – handwriting practice scheduled for 1.00pm today.